2004-01-07T11:31:00.000-05:00

I can tell you one thing; it feels really good to have the upperhand in any situation. I have also realized that if problems in your life seem like they are never going to getter they will. I go to work everyday just to try to get my life straight and then sometimes it takes a turn for the worst. But in all honesty I ALWAYS try to plan for the worst situation possible. And I always have a few tricks up my sleve. (Or at least try to)
Right now I'm trying to find a better job to make a better life for my family. That's kind of hard to do when you have only a high school diploma. I'm going to try to go back to school and see if there is any way for me to get a degree. I miss school and I love to learn. That is one of my next goals in life. Well I'm going to go right now and I will keep you posted on what's going on in my life.
Bye All.

2004-01-05T02:37:00.000-05:00

I am 22 and live in the mountains in North Carolina. I lived in Germany for 3 and half years and it was great! I have a 20 month old daughter, who is quite beautiful with her blonde hair and light blue eyes. I don't want to bore you with my life history but I think that it is important for me to tell you a little about myself so you can get to know me better.

It seems like my life has been a blur. It is almost as if I'm sitting outside of my self day dreaming and I just do things in a subconcious mode. Honestly the only memories that I really have are from when I was a young child. They also seem to be only of certain situations that effected me or my life in a certain way. I feel like I'm different from other people because I think that when I was a kid I didn't know who I was or that maybe because in God's eyes I was still innocent I had no need to remember anything. I guess it like of like the saying the babies can see angles when they are little but when they grow up they don't remember anything. I don't know about you but I don't remember any angels. Or I might not remember much because that's the ways things are supposed to be. I really don't want to except that though.

When I was 18 I moved out of my dads and now that I look back I think that it was one of many mistakes that I have made in my life so far. All I can do is think about "WHAT IF" ! I have learned that I really have to think about every decision that I make before I follow though with it or great MISTAKES can be made. Thanks to me being young and stupid I almost didn't graduate from high school because all I wanted to do at the time was party. But for some reason I got lucky and made it to graduation! But I still didn't learn my lesson.

Speaking of day dreamin.....I think about going to college everyday. I want a better life so bad that I can taste it on the tip of my tongue. I truly believe that you have total control for your life and what you make of it. Every day I think about ways that I can improve my life and my daughters life. But as soon as I try to follow through with something it seems like yet another road block is put in my path slowing me down. I try to be a good person and help people as much as I can. .......

All I Can Do Is Dream........